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peace.

thebethy3 Comments

So, hi.

 I’ve been gone for a bit. Lots of reasons for it, most of them probably incredibly boring and insignificant to anyone but me.  I’ve noticed quite a few hits lately, which is a bit baffling, considering that it’s been quite awhile since I posted. 

just some catch-up things:

  • still haven’t picked a church to attend
  • still haven’t gotten an acceptable job
  • my house is relatively clean
  • my children are pretty happy
  • BethyGirl1 is playing the trombone now
  • BethyGirl2 is playing soccer on a more serious team, and she’s pretty doggone happy about it
  • I am currently eating a Cracker Barrel Cheese Stick, sharp cheddar, which I highly recommend

Perhaps I’m back more regularly now, we’ll see.

In the meantime, BethyGirl1 came home from school and told me about Charlie the Unicorn. Have you heard about this?

Here he is:

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Shattering the setup

thebethy1 Comment

 Being divorced is like being hit by a Mack truck.  If you live through it, you start looking very carefully to the right and to the left.

~Jean Kerr

 

Divorce is the psychological equivalent of a triple coronary bypass.  After such a monumental assault on the heart, it takes years to amend all the habits and attitudes that led up to it.

~Mary Kay Blakely

 

Many divorces are not really the result of irreparable injury but involve, instead, a desire on the part of the man or woman to shatter the setup, start out from scratch alone, and make life work for them all over again.  They want the risk of disaster, want to touch bottom, see where bottom is, and, coming up, to breathe the air with relief and relish again.

~Edward Hoagland

in trying to perfect,
i destroy.
in trying to love,
i create hate.
in trying to build up,
i break down.
in trying to be free,
i imprison.
in trying to gain wisdom,
i bewilder.
in trying to explain,
i confound.
in trying to try,
it seems that
i
fail.

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I went to Perkins today.

thebethy3 Comments

Oh my goodness, has the bethy life been complicated lately.  Seems that nothing is ever simple. 

But enough of TheThingsThatI’mTiredOfThinkingAbout.

 My young but wise ex co-worker, who one day will be a famous person in some capacity, I’m sure, wrote a blog yesterday.  He teaches Shakespeare to a group of children, and instructed them to compose a journal entry using only “I believe” as the theme.  He did his own, and inspired me to see what I could come up with. His is infinitely more poetic, and I dare not attempt to compare, but it was fun nonetheless. And made me think. Which is sometimes good. Here’s mine, and I challenge you to do your own. Let your mind wander.

I believe in God.
I believe in love.
I believe they are the same.
I believe in journeys of a thousand miles leading to perfection.
I believe that unrequited love is quite likely one of the most beautiful emotions ever.
I believe that dreams come true.
I believe in fate.
I believe that sometimes we have control over life and sometimes we just have to enjoy the ride and see where it takes us.
I believe in children.
I believe that they live what they learn.
I believe in being true to yourself.
I believe in gut feelings, and following them, even if you don’t understand them.
I believe in Disney magical moments.
I believe that we can make friends with someone’s soul.
I believe in learning from one’s mistakes.
I believe in being alone.
I believe in getting the party started.
I believe in romance, but not over the top.
I believe in breakfast.anytime.
I believe in having it your way.
I believe that once you get rid of the need to please others, that you begin to discover who you really are.
I believe that you get back what you give.
I believe that 20-somethings who have their whole lives in front of them are unstoppable.
I believe in making promises to yourself.
I believe in never settling.
I believe that if you do the perfect thing at the wrong time, you could kill it.
I believe that if it’s meant to be, it will happen.
I believe that there is good in everyone.
I believe that the people who look for evil everywhere will find it.
I believe that I know what I’m doing, although looks may be deceiving.
I believe in planes, trains, and automobiles. and boats. heck. transportation in general.
I believe in looking out for number one when necessary.
I believe in making friends who are not like you.
I believe that everything will be just fine.

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Hope on Top

thebethy5 Comments

so is it worth it
to lose
one’s Person
in order to find
One’s Person?
and not in the
otherperson
manner.
but in the
my person
one.
chances taken
that, really,
could not have been fathomed
before,
seem crucial suddenly.
oddly enough,
(funny how the words are coming now)
salvation
is in the risk.
interesting how the
self
preservation
thing
could,
in all actuality
and hope,
be our rescue.

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Defunked, I do believe. (not defunct)

thebethy2 Comments

Hi folks. Bootstrap time again.

Which means a list of all the crap I didn’t get done whilst funking.

and none of it will be interesting to you. ha. but look, you’re sucked in, aren’t you?

here goes:

  • pay ticket that is probably past 30 days, or possibly just send a random check for 200 bucks to the Florida Highway Patrol.
  • do the online driver school for the ticket I got on Easter… 
  • realize that I really need to drive more carefully before I’m broke.
  • take Annie to the groomer, since our week at the beach was also a week at the beachhouse with fleas. yay. I now have a matted, itchy shih-tzu with skin problems. woot woot!
  • finish cleaning my downstairs. I’m on a roll, finally. 
  • go for a walk with the girlies.  briskly.

I can’t think of anything else at the moment, but if I get that stuff accomplished it will be considered a Day of Miracles.

While doing all of the above things, I expect I’ll be listening to Aqualung. They’re fabulous, and my new favorite. Here ya go.