Alright so I just updated my About section on here, because I felt like it was time – that picture is super old. While updating, I realized that I have been blogging for nearly TEN YEARS. TEN! These have been the ten most trying years of my life, I think. And I love that in some way, shape or form, they’re documented. I’m not proud of everything – far from it – but it’s there. Sometimes just pictures, or videos, or songs (lawd, tons of songs.) There’s something comforting about going back and seeing growth and maybe even a little wisdom seeping in over the years. Tons of cringing too, ugh.
Anyhoo. My blog brain has been renewed. I no longer feel as if I’m writing for someone else to see. It’s just me here, and really I just want to have something to measure by.
Now I’m gonna go to Disney and help my sister celebrate her 40th birthday, a little late.
Whoa whoa whoa – can you say post-vacation letdown? Emo alert on that last post. Sorry folks, welcome to my world. It’s a little weird.
Anyhoo, it is definitely time to get out of my own head. There are many many things to do around here. So far, the plans for next year have gone from deciding that we will not be doing a family vacation because of my Camino to HEY LET’S DO EVERYTHING IN 2016.
Where we were: September 2016: Camino
Where we are now: December 2015: Move to a house
March 2016: 5 Day Cruise for Lolly’s 40th birthday
June 2016: Spend a week in St George Island with the fam
September/October 2016: Dad and I go to Spain
There may be just a little stress involved there. Maybe. I mean, it’s great, and I’m thankful. But it’s overwhelming, especially since I’m only working part time now. Correction: VERY part time. I’d love to get something else, but then it interferes with real life too much and just ends up being a hassle for very little $$ return. Repeat: I’m thankful. It’s not a terrible problem to have, and I know that. But I’m starting to feel a little useless, and I don’t like that.
I read a little article yesterday (you can find it here) that basically explained the worst possible life circumstance for each Myers-Briggs personality type. I’m an ENFP, which is no surprise, and here’s what mine said:
ENFP – Every minute of the rest of your life has been scheduled for you – and it’s a long series of arbitrary, solitary tasks.
Note to self: Don’t let this happen. I hate ruts and every emotion that goes with them. Trouble is, I find myself in them pretty easily. Why would I be drawn to the situation that would hurt me the most? Lord, I’ve asked myself that question before.
But I digress. Again.
The point here is that I’m going to have to get outside more, meet new people, and stop being at home so much. I can’t expect The Universe to give me opportunities if I don’t go out into it.
Is that the point? Hell, I don’t know. Thank goodness I’m the only one who reads this thing.
I have a LOT going on right now. Is there such a thing as a goal-junkie? I’ve gone from never ever setting goals, for fear of never reaching them, to wanting a set, measurable goal for everything I do. Yes, this is good, but as a person who gets overwhelmed easily, sometimes I fear that I’m setting myself up for failure. The key to all of this is going to be organization – once again, not normally one of my strengths. Hello, 2015 Challenge.
From past experience in things like Weight Watchers and onthejob happenings, I know that if I have a measurable goal and keep track of progress, I WILL accomplish it. Now that I’m starting a new job from home, getting fit, learning Spanish, returning to the Catholic church, and in the meantime trying to be an exceptional mom and spouse(ish), I realize how important it is to measure daily, weekly, monthly, and have set benchmarks to know if I’m keeping up. This is where my passion planner comes in. Now, because I was late to the game, I’m not getting it til February so I just have to Hold On through January so that I don’t lose motivation.
This is likely a real bore of a post to anyone who isn’t me, so congratulations if you actually read it. Sometimes you just need to put it out there, ya know? (I know.)
Aw, man. I’m in a funk, y’all. Worked a ton in October, hurt my knee, haven’t been walking… it’s a recipe for a funky disaster. This is my favorite time of year, I should be happy to have free time and cooler weather and family eating occasions. I’ll get there. Should I wallow? Part of me wants to, but what a waste of time to do that. Meh. I’ll listen to music and clean the kitchen.
Welp, I’ve hurt my knee. I’m not happy about it. Taking the day off from doing an official walk, although I can’t say that I won’t be walking in place by my bed tonight before sleep happens. It’s been an exhausting weekend. I’m looking forward to the week just to get some rest. 🙂