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goals · JohnnyFive · mind blurbs

Errands and answers

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Ok, there are a patrillion things that I’m supposed to be doing right now. 

  • book the bowling place so we can have a late b-day party for sick-on-her-birthday Abby
  • deposit some moolah in the bank (why do I always put that off? makes no sense)
  • contact FSU for my official transcript
  • look at my bank balance (oy vey)
  • hit Publix for some dinner fixens
  • clean the kitchen in anticipation of actually cooking

I think that’s it.  Not quite so intimidating when it’s all written down. OH crap. I also have to pay my ticket before there’s a warrant out for my arrest.  Yeah, on Easter Sunday I ran a red light. (I still insist that it was yellow.)  I tried to smile my way out of it, but mister man wasn’t so nice. Happy Easter my arse!

blah.

That being said, of course, I’m gonna blog.  Can a person die of overprocrastination? I think I’ll be a guinea pig on that one.

So, Stiletto asked how J5 and I met.

Picture it. Sicily. 1912.
oh wait.

Try French class. 1988.
I don’t know him yet, but I want to.
So I write some obscure yet witty quip on a tiny piece of paper, fold it up, and throw it at him.
That was the beginning of a year of flying paper.
Best of friends.
We lost touch after J5‘s freshman year at FSU.
Both married other people, had kids, got divorced.
I found him on myspace, by accident.
Nice surprise.
🙂
Here’s the video synopsis.

Johnny, feel free to add anything I’ve missed,, (especially if it’s complimentary towards yours truly,) and try not to go all egomaniac on me. 😉

goals · mind blurbs

So you know how when you’re putting a puzzle together…

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you do all the sides first? Where you know the boundaries of the puzzle, but the inside is just a scattered mess? And you know what it’s going to look like when it’s done, and you know the hard part’s over, but there’s still work to do to get it just right? But you have faith that at this point, you’re definitely going to finish it, and you’re not going to give up til you’re done?

That’s sort of where I’m at right now.

Except it’s not a puzzle, really.

It’s the BethyLife.

goals · organization

Self talk.

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Hey. This blog will probably be boring to anyone besides myself, but I felt the need earlier to jot some things down…. and according to me, if I ever feel an actual urge to write it, it has to be blogged.
so, without further ado~

I want to be:

  • the kind of mom who makes special dinners for Valentines Day.
  • the one who actually decorates for Valentines Day and other not-so-significant holidays.
  • the one whose children can’t wait to come home to new seasonal decor. Might sound silly, but I always felt a thrill coming home to see Indian corn hanging by the door, or bunnies in the window, or pine boughs on the fence.
  • the kind of neighbor and housekeeper who can invite people in spontaneously
  • the kind of person who lives her spirituality. who has peace. who sees the humor in life and the big picture.

All of this seems almost trivial today, writing it. And overemphasizing things like housekeeping and messiness…. I wonder if it’s some of the cult mentality still haunting me. I don’t want to use that as an excuse, because, seriously, I do have issues with organization and tidiness. For goodness sake, I still have my Christmas tree up and it’s February 15th. Geez. I can do better than that.

One good thing. Looks like I’m finally getting an idea of what I want to be. This isn’t coming from a neat freak husband or a pampered pulpit preacher. I’m realizing that I’m a better person, and a happier person, when things are better organized. Jinkies. Is this growing up a little? Hmm.

church issues · goals · relationships

The Worlds Collide

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So this morning… I was looking for a way to put my poems on myspace, or do an rss feed, or something. Well, when I got here, I ended up putting my poetry blog onto the new blogger format, which, unbeknownst to me, stuck my poetry blog onto the same profile as this one.
At first, that posed a bit of a problem, because, well, for a few reasons:

  1. This blog was not necessarily known by any of my friends. I was just sort of doing it to be doing it, you know? Not to be read by folks who actually know me.
  2. I’ve given out the poetry link to quite a few of said friends. Not sure how many of them actually look at it anymore, since most of those folks are in Tallahassee, but still.
  3. Which means that now, the people who looked at my poetry blog would be able to also see this one. Ready for a sublist of why that’s a problem? ok:

a) My heading on this blog. Some of the people that have the poetry link, heck most of them… are members of the church that I refer to as a cult. I’m afraid that I may hurt some feelings. I do still feel that way, and hesitate greatly to change my wording just because someone is looking. However, my intention is not to make anyone mad with that label. I’m not judging the people who are still there. Ok, enough apologizing. It’s my blog and I can write what I want, right? ugh.

b) Not sure if I’m completely ready for 2 worlds to collide. It’s kind of like Work George and Fun George, a la Seinfeld.

So.

That being said, I’m going to leave it the way it is. For so long, I felt that I lived 2 different lives, and had to hide one from the other… and I don’t want to feel that way anymore.

Here’s to 2007. A Year of Oneness.

goals

What I’m procrastinating today: 1) At the moment I…

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What I’m procrastinating today:
1) At the moment I have no car insurance. My parents bought me a car about ummm 2 months ago… yeah I never called to get it changed over. Mom’s having a freak out fit and I KNOW that I need to get it done, but the idea of doing it seems monstrous. Instead, I find that living in fear of a fender bender is somehow preferable. Yes I’m 33. I think perhaps meds would be a good idea. Do they make anti–procrastination medication? What would it be called? I’ll contemplate and get back to bloggage on that one. I bet J5 could help me out.

2) Cleaning my apartment. I have some garbage bags out on the back porch that have been there for about a week now. Being that I live in Florida, it might be a little rank out on the ole balcony. I can’t smell it from here, and nothing’s leaking out of the bags so I guess I’m ok for now. But it really should be done soon.

3) Sending an email to my custody lady about the stbx’s recent attempts to keep me out of the loop children-wise. I won’t get into that now, but ya know, I’m sure it will come up again in the near future, and at that point I’ll be in discuss-every-stupid-arrogant-thing-he’s-ever-done phase. Wait for it….Wow I think that’s it on the procrastination for the day. Of course it’s early, so I could conceivably think of something else at any point… OH!

4) Call my old neighbor. I think I have a job opportunity. I’ve been sitting on my duff since November, waiting for my divorce to happen. Now that it’s been put off until September, I think perhaps I’m tired of putting my life on hold. I procrastinate a lot of things, but LIFE? not so much. So anyway. Job. Office manager-type thing for a guy who used to live under me here at Lotus. I’m supposed to answer phones and.. get this… pay his bills on time and stuff. SHhh we won’t tell him….That’s it for now, I’m sure I’ll return for more fun stuff.

Yep, so here I am.

Did lots of fun stuff this afternoon. We went out to the pool, which I thought was deserted, but there turned out to be the Lone Creepy Guy hanging out in the corner. He was a tad skeevy, with his big dark shades on. I wondered why he was even there. Not swimming, not sunning, just sort of … pooling. I don’t quite get it.

oops, almost the end of today… if I say more later, it’ll be on tomorrow’s blog.

End of Day 1