Okay then…
Wisdom from my Starbucks cup o’tea (Berryblossom White) this evening:
You can learn a lot more from
listening than you can from talking.
Find someone with whom you
don’t agree in the slightest and ask
them to explain themselves at
length. Then take a seat, shut your
mouth, and don’t argue back. It’s
physically impossible to listen with
your mouth open.
-John Moe, Radio host and author of Conservatize Me.
I start my new job tomorrow! More money, weekends off, way more time with my girls, and lovely people to work with. I’m really excited. Oh. and I get to actually sit down. Hope that doesn’t affect the derriere…
Ahhhh…
a day off. nice.
I’m officially over this whole OooRetailWillBeFun thing. Selling makeup was fun for a bit, but the scheduling has been horrific. This Christmas was supposed to be my holiday with the girls, and I think I had a total of 36 hours with them. Whirlwind 4 hour drives to North Florida do not exactly make for meaningful family time, ya know?
So I’ve applied for a few Instructional Assistant positions with the county schools, and I’m awaiting a phone call from a friend-of-a-friend who may have a job for me as well. I can’t wait to get out of retail world and be a real mom again.
The ex had the BethyGirls for New Years, and I went to Cinci to see my favorite male. We went to a fabulous shindig at Shadowbox in Newport Kentucky, and for New Years Day enjoyed an IronChef marathon and some yummy chili with J5’s mom and brother. (hi!) God made some pretty snow for me too, thrilling for my native Floridian self. It was a great trip, just way too short.
My only New Year’s Resolution is to get myself back to church. Yes, I know, you can have church anywhere, and God is with us all the time, etc etc. But I miss it, and I know that I have to present some sort of alternative to the BethyGirls. If they have to choose between something and nothing when they grow up, they’ll choose something. I plan on at least giving them an alternative that doesn’t make them think that the world around them is evil and scary.
Because it’s quite the opposite.
pics to come, as soon as I unlazy myself and make a slideshow. wonder how long that’ll take..?
Hi.
Back home.
Happy New Year! Pics to come…
Helpful hint of the day: Never ever take a cab from MCO to Altamonte Springs. Your bank account will suffer.
Off to Tally to pick up my pup~
Circle, circle, dot dot…
vs. 
What do you think? When Ken grows up and stops dying his hair….
Honestly, I can’t decide if he’s more Ken-like, or more soap opera starry. I wonder if he has an evil twin somewhere. We probably should look into this before we vote for him.*
Dave gave me The Blog of The Day status yesterday. He likes me! (or at least one of my videos..) Hey Mikey! Pretty cool. Go read about him, he’s interesting. Which makes me cool by comparison…. hmm… and thereby You. Congratulations. 🙂
Oooo. Have you heard of Jenny Owen Youngs? Surely you have…. if not, get thee to her myspace, and quickly. Listen to Things We Don’t Need Anymore. It’s a really superb and deliciously sad Christmas song. I would love to meet her and talk about the background of all of her songs. If you’re into lyrics like I am, you will adore her.
It’s time for me to go to bed now. I have more to say, but I think I’m just going to try to jot them down later, my parents are coming to town, so it’ll be a weekend full of lovely Disney Magic. And you know I’m a sucker for Disney Magic. 🙂
I’ll leave you with a PSA that we all need….
**edit** If I had an Idiot of the Day theme, I would use it for this man. He won’t even remember the heroic measures he took to keep that good vodka out of the hands of unappreciative, uncultured airport employees.
*but don’t. Ron Paul all the way, baby.
I just wanna say…
that if you look up the word Happy in the dictionary, I’m pretty sure you’ll see my picture there.
Things are coming together in ways that I never dared to dream… wait. You know what? I take that back. I did dream it. And I’m so glad that I did. I learned that it’s ok to know what you want, and what you need.
Here’s to taking your time. And taking chances.
How did I get through the last 8 years without seeing this??
Amazing.
Sara Teasdale at 4 am
There never was a mood of mine,
Gay or heart-broken, luminous or dull,
But you could ease me of its fever
And give it back to me more beautiful.
In many another soul I broke the bread,
And drank the wine and played the happy guest,
But I was lonely, I remembered you;
The heart belongs to him who knew it best.
hi.
sometimes you hear a song at just the right time. it happened today.
so much to learn.
I know what makes me comfortable
And I know what makes me tick
And I when I need to get my way
I know how to pour it on thick
Cream and sugar in my coffee
Right away when I awake
I face the day, and pray to God
I won’t make the same mistakes
All the rest is out of my hands
I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change, yeah I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can
Yeah I don’t know my father
Or my mother well enough
It seems like every time we talk
We can’t get past the little stuff
The pain is self-inflicted
I know it’s not good for my health
But it’s easier to please the world
Then it is to please myself
All the rest is out of my hands
I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change, yeah I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can
Right now I can’t care about how everyone else really feels
I have enough hurt of my own to heal
I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to let go what I cannot change
I will learn to forgive what I cannot change
I will learn to love what I cannot change
But I will change, yeah I will change
Whatever I, whenever I can
Better to have a heart without words, than words without a heart…
Call me old-fashioned. I still say good-night prayers with the girls every night before they go to bed. Actually, I just hold their hands and listen to what they have to offer up. BethyGirl1 has had the same prayer since she learned to talk, basically, always ending with, “and thank you for the food. In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”
About 2 weeks ago, BethyGirl1 balked a little when I came to say prayers, and informed me that she would rather say it to herself. I assumed that part of it was growing up stuff, and part of it was that she didn’t want her sister to hear her. Last night, she slept downstairs, (the a/c is out, and it’s cooler) so I thought perhaps she’d want to say them together. Sister was out of earshot, and we had had a particularly snuggly happy day. I asked, and instantly noticed a funny look on her face.
me: “You want to say prayers tonight?”
BethyGirl1: *scrunched up, worried face*
me: “hmm what’s up? is there a reason you don’t want to say them?”
BethyGirl1: “well, it’s just hard because you and dad believe different things…”
And there you have it. If you know me at all, you know how that cuts to the quick.
I did the right thing, and told her that I knew it was confusing for her, etc etc. I’ve had enough classes to know what to say and what not to say. I did make sure that she knew that God could hear my prayers too, and she acknowledged that, yes, she did believe that. I didn’t want to pressure her, because I knew she felt funny about it. I asked her to think about her reasons, if she didn’t mind, and let me know if she came up with any concrete feelings on why she didn’t feel comfortable anymore. She said she would, and we left it at that. She knows it concerns me, but I’m glad that she told me how she felt.
The problem is, what do I do? It breaks my heart.
Sha-pow! 
