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January 19, 2010January 19, 2010 thebethyLeave a comment

I filed for divorce 4 years ago today.
Currently wondering why it sounds like the Indy 500 outside my window.
Planned to go out tonight, but have completely funked myself out and now all I’m doing is going to Target for shampoo and something to eat for dinner. Any suggestions?
Super excited about the results of the Massachusetts election this evening.
Haitian orphans are here in Sanford. I want to help them.
Possibly going to see Up In the Air, solo, tonight. I just decided that.

There’s your fascinating update from moi!

mind blurbs

Hmm

October 12, 2009 thebethy7 Comments

I might be back. Let’s see how it goes, shall we?

it’s our time down here.

June 15, 2008June 15, 2008 thebethy1 Comment

Today is a good day.

Mom, Lolly, and the kids are coming down on Wednesday, and I’m getting the house ready for company. Usually this would send me into a tizzy, but it doesn’t feel that way right now. And of course, Johnny will be here on the 28th. Life feels exceptional these days.

Knock on wood.

P.S. In perusing the internet, which I do on occasion, I came across this little known guitarman, JM‘s blog about The Goonies. I agree with his philosophy that, if we live long enough, and are truthful enough with ourselves, we eventually accept and revel in the fact that inside, we are all Goonies.

mind blurbs · vids

This is for you, CD!

June 5, 2008June 5, 2008 thebethy1 Comment

Because I know how much you and your family will enjoy it.

Everyone else, watch at your own peril.

mind blurbs · My Issues...? · poems · relationships

unfinished.

February 25, 2008March 6, 2008 thebethy2 Comments

divorced male
christian.
looking for a
godly wife,
a best friend,
a quiet nighttime hand holder.
funny how,
when,
in the whole world,
that’s all i wanted to be,
you weren’t looking for me
at
all.

JohnnyFive · mind blurbs · poems

Sara Teasdale at 4 am

October 1, 2007October 1, 2007 thebethyLeave a comment

There never was a mood of mine,
Gay or heart-broken, luminous or dull,
But you could ease me of its fever
And give it back to me more beautiful.
In many another soul I broke the bread,
And drank the wine and played the happy guest,
But I was lonely, I remembered you;
The heart belongs to him who knew it best.

goals · mind blurbs

Funny thing happened on the way to soccer practice…

September 13, 2007 thebethy6 Comments

It’s amazing how, when timed perfectly, one conversation, one look, one inflection of speech, can delete years of self examination… the years spent rediscovering one’s self worth, the years spent remembering that life can be lived without asking permission, without the constant question of “am I good enough?”

It seems that the psyche is easily triggered to go back to that time, that instead of recalling liberty, it opts to retreat to times of weakness and submission. At the slightest provocation, like a mental rewind, insecurity and fear creep back.

It’s happened before, and produced depression and paralysis.

Not this time. This time it will be used to kick some proverbial arse.

Let’s move on, shall we? I think we shall.

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