It’s amazing how, when timed perfectly, one conversation, one look, one inflection of speech, can delete years of self examination… the years spent rediscovering one’s self worth, the years spent remembering that life can be lived without asking permission, without the constant question of “am I good enough?”
It seems that the psyche is easily triggered to go back to that time, that instead of recalling liberty, it opts to retreat to times of weakness and submission. At the slightest provocation, like a mental rewind, insecurity and fear creep back.
It’s happened before, and produced depression and paralysis.
Not this time. This time it will be used to kick some proverbial arse.
Let’s move on, shall we? I think we shall.
Sha-pow! 
hmm… think i need details.
xoxo
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i don’t fully understand what happened? question mark? upward inflection?
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I know. It’s confusing to me too.
Basically when you’re told for lots of years that you’re inadequate and inferior, it screws with you.
So I become part time whiney baby and part time rock star don’t-mess-with-me girl.
yay me!
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Ugh – sorry you have to deal with that AGAIN. But this time it sounds like you can CHOOSE YOUR RESPONSE
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and follow through with what is good for you and the girlies.
(I hit tab and submitted my comment before I was done).
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What the heck do other people know? If someone wants to talk down to me, I think it says more negative about them than myself. Just kick ’em in the junk (physically or verbally, your call) and walk away. Maybe spit on their neck first before you go, though.
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